Encouragement and kind-heartedness

I was talking to someone earlier about how far we have come since graduating High School. It's inspired me to write a blog about it. I come from an abusive household. All throughout high school I was a down-right mean, cold-hearted, selfish bitch. I had friends yes, but I doubt I actually cared about them. All except for one, anyways. I thought everyone hated me, and I hated everyone too.

Once I graduated highschool my mentality and personality changed. I went from being closed up and not talking to anyone to starting conversations with anyone and everyone. Even people that I don't know. (That's my favorite!) I want to know everyone. I want everyone to feel loved and know that they have someone to talk to when they're bored, down, excited, mad, etc. I'm so, so different than I once was it's unreal. It's like I'm a new, separate person now. I care about people, and I care about the way I present myself and look these days. I believe it's because I'm not a part of the hate that I felt anymore. At home, I was stressed. I hurt every single day. I cried most days. I wasn't happy with myself or life. I never left my house. I never had anyone over. But now, I'm always out doing something entertaining. I love making people happy, and making them feel loved. Everyone deserves to be loved and encouraged. Even those who don't necessarily deserve it. I think now that I'm in a different environment I'm not so blind. I can see that people, including myself, have feelings. I can see that even though my parents don't really care about me at all, others do. They genuinely love me for who I am.. and that to me is beautiful. And in return, I want to spread my love and my friendship to everyone... because I never did that before, and never really had anyone to give that to.

I am so thankful for each and every person that I talk to, and I mean that.